Only 4 months after getting cancer left, Aya s mother s "heartbreaking words" made her angry
Aya was living and dying during the epidemic. When talking about her mother, she still couldn't stop her face. "I am very attached to my mother and I am used to send messages to share with her big and small things in life. I want to talk to her right away if there is anything now, but my mother is no longer here." She still can't believe that the mother has left. "Seeing her mother's ashes, I still think that all this is not true. I am dreaming, right?" The pain of losing her deepest will take a long time to calm down.
{9 I only had 4 months since I left the cancerRecalling the process of my mother's illness, Aiya said that since the end of last year, my mother's appetite suddenly became worse. "I thought it was a stomach problem at first, but my appetite still did not improve. My mother had breast cancer more than 20 years ago, so she went back to see her, but the doctor also said that she had no recurrence. "The doctor suggested that the mother do other examinations and found that there was a problem with the pancreas. "It was confirmed that there was no transmissible cancer around April, but after looking at a period of time, I found that there were cancer cells in the bones, but I couldn't find which part of the transfer, so I got a bone cancer needle first."
The condition is getting worse, "We looked for where the original cancer is, and my mother also started to have stomach pain and fertilized fertilization. It was confirmed in April and May that the cancer had shifted, but the epidemic broke out later and the doctor could not get a diagnosis. It was not until June that my mother was diagnosed with very rare hemangioma cancer, but this kind of cancer There are less than 10 cases in Taiwan a year. There are no targets and no syrup, so I can only try it. "My mother's lungs have the most serious impact. "She can't sleep at night because she can't breathe, just like drowning. She was admitted to the hospital at the end of July, and she had no way to breathe."
The mother's confession before her deathThe mother's anti-cancer process became strong. She also suddenly grew up overnight, and she changed from the daughter who was taken care of by her mother to the backing of her mother when she was sick. She revealed that her mother woke up while sleeping in the hospital in the later stages. "She woke up on the 14th and told me that she couldn't let go of us. She gave birth to me later. She still wanted to see me marry and have children, but she couldn't see it." She was worried about her mother's condition and couldn't eat and sleep well. During this period, she lost 7 kilograms. "To my mother, she should have relieved her. But it is still very difficult for the living people. I always feel that I can't take her around and see her. It's a bit regretful." Although her mother is gone, she inherited her mother's kindness. "I told myself that her mother's spirit will always be there. I hope to bring this kind of kindness to the people around me. This is the only thing I can do."
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Aiya's face full text: Mom, you have been gone for a month...
I never dared to muster up the courage to write this article, because so, it seems that I have to face the fact that you have left; but I still remember what you taught me and what you expect me, I have learned it.
I have a mother who is like a young man who walks very fast, has the most urgent and does things the most brisk, and never drags on it. It only took four months from serious illness to death, just like her son doing things like her.
I have a mother who never thought there were bad people in the world who once asked her: Did you sacrifice your life for everyone, that best friend, do you do anything touching for you? She said no, and we should also pay attention to her and give her some things. We can't say that she is not good.
Mom said: I have never encountered bad people like this! — This is a golden sentence from Zhang Mom, and we used to laugh at her for being unable to distinguish between good and bad people. Since I left my mother, I realized that my mother has helped many people silently throughout her life. It turns out that you have always taught us kindness by example.
I have a family member who sacrificed my family from small to large for my family, so that I can grow up under your protection. I never brought a key because you would wait for me to come home; I never cut fruit because you would help us cut the seeds and put them in the refrigerator; I always have hot food whenever I open my eyes, because you say you like to see us eat and drink enough, which is the way of happiness. When I was having a hard time, you were even harder than me because you said you would protect me and don’t be afraid. No matter what, my mother is the best backing, which made me grow into a loving, strong and powerful person. It is precisely because of your strength, you have too many responsibilities under your wings and you have no choice but to relax. My father also needs you to take care of you for 24 hours. When you have the opportunity to go out for a relaxing vacation, you still have the heart to stay with your demented husband at home. I know that all of this is for the children who work hard outside to rest assured, so you are willing to sacrifice and you are willing to be in harmony.
I have a mother who is always grateful to the world several times, dragging her painful body, and she always smiles and thanks the medical staff for their efforts. When she stays, the nurses come to the ward to help the mother with their slap. The mother will open her eyes as much as possible, smile and call the familiar nurses' names in a faint voice, hold their hands, and express gratitude. In this life, you taught us to know how to thank. Even when we reach the end of life, our mother will always be grateful for everything in this world.
Mom, I can never hear you coming in and tell me: I was just recognized on the metropolis, I am so proud.
Mom, I can't hear it again. I jumped around and said early in the morning: I've eaten, it's hot, hot, and hot, and it's delicious when it's hot!
Mom, I will never hear it again. You shouted loudly at us: My loud voice means I am in good health. In the future, you will miss it very much if you don’t hear it!
Mom, it’s really like you said. It turns out that it’s so painful to not hear it!
Until now, I still think you are just joking with us, I still think you will call me and video me tonight, and care about when I will go home? What did you eat today? I also asked me to share the work photos with you, and then I showed a satisfied smile, saying that this factory is really good and gave birth to three such good children.
Every day after you left, it is so unreal.
This serious illness, I instantly grew from a child that you were snatching in the palm of my hand into an arm that you could rely on. At the beginning, it was very difficult and difficult. I really want to be held tightly by you again, and I want to see you feel satisfied with eating the dishes I cooked; I will feed you medicines and health supplements every two hours, so that when you see me, you will say: Ah, don’t drink it anymore, please! That lovely smile; you sleep soundly beside me; every day I play a foot massager, pressing you so hard and smiling, showing a motherly smile. I suddenly realized how precious it was to take care of you. It was God's chance to let me report your kindness. In just four months, every minute and every second were the happiest moment in my life.
In the past, you always said: When I get old, no one will take care of me. (Because my mother was at home all her life and always played the role of a carer. You are so good at caring for people and are a terrible chef) But when you first entered the hospital, you wrote a letter and told me: I don’t have to worry about doing things. I wonder how many points my mother gave us three female characters? Does it make you comfortable? That's why I can leave with a smile. Mom, you are teaching me to grow and thrive in the end of your life. Is this how you can leave with confidence, right?
Mom, I know you don't want me to be sad because you work harder than me in my life and care more about whether I am happy or not. When you were unable to organize language on the hospital bed, you also said to me: I'm leaving, you can't die! Because you know that I might not be able to survive without you, I taught me to mature and grow up and face this moment in many different ways...
Mom, this class is so difficult, and you leave me alone to continue learning. I wonder if you live comfortably there now? Do you miss us very much? Are you wearing warm food? Will You be disrespectful without me sticking to You? But I believe that such a kind and lovely mother must have gone to a good place. Therefore, I will inherit Your spirit of goodness; and I will also live well with Your love.
Mom, please rest assured that life and death will not separate us, but a new beginning. I will walk forward with full blessings and the courage you leave to me.
Mom, thank you, I love you.
You will live in my heart forever.
